Day 4 and I Quit!
I have quit the 30 day challenge!. Have I failed? No. I dont believe that I have.
Infact, this has taught me so much over the past 4 days and I will try and explain this........
This is pressure....pure pressure. Not that I am uncomfortable with that as I work well under pressure. But its unnesecessary pressure, without gain.
Yes, I am painting more, but with a view to deliver and entering a piece every day and not really focussing on completing it to my satisfaction and even doing it well. But I am enjoying searching out the things that I really wanted to paint before and making myself do them. But why cant I do this anyway. Of course I can and now I will.
At the end of the day I way just delivering! And where and why!
I wanted to revisit paintings that I have done in the past and re do them but not like this. I could do it, but there wouldnt be much point because again time will not have been taken to do the job well and therefore not improve on what I had before.
If I were a professional artist and could dedicate my day to the task that would be another story, but I am not.
I have chores to do and holidays to run and family visiting and will not deprive each of those of my time because I want to despatch a half hearted painting. I am even losing sleep over "what should I paint next". It is not worth it!
I will paint more now because I have missed it and I love it but I will also respect the advice of those that I am learning from around me and take time rather than try and throw their theories down
Hopefully this will make me a much better artist and person too.