Day 4 and I Quit!I have quit the 30 day challenge!. Have I failed? No. I dont believe that I have.
Infact, this has taught me so much over the past 4 days and I will try and explain this........
This is pressure....pure pressure. Not that I am uncomfortable with that as I work well under pressure. But its unnesecessary pressure, without gain.
Yes, I am painting more, but with a view to deliver and entering a piece every day and not really focussing on completing it to my satisfaction and even doing it well. But I am enjoying searching out the things that I really wanted to paint before and making myself do them. But why cant I do this anyway. Of course I can and now I will.
At the end of the day I way just delivering! And where and why!
I wanted to revisit paintings that I have done in the past and re do them but not like this. I could do it, but there wouldnt be much point because again time will not have been taken to do the job well and therefore not improve on what I had before.
If I were a professional artist and could dedicate my day to the task that would be another story, but I am not.
I have chores to do and holidays to run and family visiting and will not deprive each of those of my time because I want to despatch a half hearted painting. I am even losing sleep over "what should I paint next". It is not worth it!
I will paint more now because I have missed it and I love it but I will also respect the advice of those that I am learning from around me and take time rather than try and throw their theories down
Hopefully this will make me a much better artist and person too.
Bx
I totally understand Bix!
ReplyDeleteI understand too. It's a bit commitment when you have other things in your life. I just paint when the mood takes me and I have time. I enjoy it more that way.
ReplyDeleteI've done the challenge twice, didn't complete the first time but managed the second... I think your reasons for not continuing are sound and reasonable and if it has kick started a new painting habit then it was worth the days you have spent so far..... painting should be fun, never a pressure and it isn't as if you don't have enough to do!! Will look forward to seeing more from you in the future!! xx
ReplyDeleteExactly the reason I didn't do it this time - I knew I wouldn't have the time and I was in a much better position and frame of mind last time and found it fun rather than becoming a chore and pressure - there's just too much going on at the moment so I completely understand you not carrying on with it - shame though as I've been enjoying seeing your paintings over the last few days!!
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